closures, hangups, and watever..

mood: hangups, closures
song: linger by the cranberries

*been stuck on that song

today was a blast..sabi nga ni gerald sa text niya, so much fun today,
facial, (well di ako kasama dito), hehe.. hair chuva (had mine dyed red temporarily and rebonded for that matter), timezone with ge and jommel, iceberg kingkong ice cream and fries with jobs ge and jommel, eugene people and people i know...naks saw camil haha and hanged out for awhile, orasan ko daw (how to spot cute guys sa mall), sweet tomatoes (referring sa fries), longterm or short term, (ge: cute oh, ako: para maiba naman, let's look for those na pwede long term?, ge: ayan o, 3 o'clock, hahaha pointing out a guy around 40's , ako: uh..longterm talaga yan teh...*hahahaha)... hangups (si ge sa kimidora, ako sa greenwich at kay willi (topic na naman ba to haha) , closures and pizza sa yellow cab.. and empire..(yeah dance battle sana, if matanong ko si mansour)..

closures, lovelife and all...lahat naman tayo may problema sa ganyan..trust me..kapag pag-ibig we all fall, we all cry, we all act like stupid kids who can't get what they want, tell me who never did.. sabi nga ni paulo coelho, and for those who have never been wounded in love, they will never be able to say "i lived" because they didn't...

siyempre naguusap kami nila jobelle at gerald sa bus kanina about sa moving on, about sa closures, about how some people need it and how some do not, about how some needs the reasons while some would rather not know... well guess what, I need it..and I need the reasons no matter how stupid they maybe.. I just need to know..i know i said goodbye already, i probably said it thousands of times (i am exaggerating).. but we are still connected ..damn facebook and those applications, its like we exist in each other's world but we do not, it's like im losing someone i never had, how does that happen... see i just need a reason, it doesn't have to be good, but it's going to be enough..

Camil said that I need a diversion, a new work perhaps or something so I won't think of him,.. I know that, I do that, have done that, it worked..its just that..I do not want to wake up a year after and think of this guy and wonder what if...syet what the hell with those quotes about the one who got away..I am pretty sure it wasn't mykel cause he's back in my life, and yeah i've pretty much accepted it that he doesn't want me, and it's fine, 5 years was enough for that..but these guys, i'd rather close it, than wonder what if , after all they can't be all right, right? ...there's quite a lot of wrongs, that, i'm starting to realize..haha