500 days of summer

i thought of wanting to watch 500 days of summer all over again. and i still do..must get a copy. =D

Tom: People don't realize this, but loneliness is underrated.

Tom: What happens when you fall in love?
Summer: You believe in that?
Tom: It's love, it's not Santa Claus.

Rachel Hansen: Just because she's likes the same bizzare crap you do doesn't mean she's your soul mate

Rachel Hansen: Look, I know you think she was the one, but I don't. Now, I think you're just remembering the good stuff. Next time you look back, I, uh, I really think you should look again.

Summer: I woke up one morning and I just knew.
Tom: Knew what?
Summer: What I was never sure of with you.

Tom: Either she's an evil, emotionless, miserable human being, or... she's a robot.

Tom: Look, we don't have to put a label on it. That's fine. I get it. But, you know, I just... I need some consistency.
Summer: I know.
Tom: I need to know that you're not gonna wake up in the morning and feel differently.
Summer: And I can't give you that. Nobody can.

Tom: Did you ever do this, you think back on all the times you've had with someone and you just replay it in your head over and over again and you look for those first signs of trouble

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Tom: I love how she makes me feel, like anything's possible, or like life is worth it.

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McKenzie: Hey, maybe you should write a book.
Tom: What?
McKenzie: Well, you know, Henry Miller said the best way to get over a woman is to turn her into literature

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Narrator: Most days of the year are unremarkable. They begin and they end with no lasting memory made in between. Most days have no impact on the course of a life.

Summer: Well, you know, I guess it's 'cause I was sitting in a deli and reading Dorian Gray and a guy comes up to me and asks me about it and... now he's my husband.
Tom: Yeah. And... so?
Summer: So, what if I'd gone to the movies? What if I had gone somewhere else for lunch? What if I'd gotten there 10 minutes later? It was - it was meant to be. And... I just kept thinking... Tom was right.
Tom: No.
Summer: Yeah, I did.
[laughs]
Summer: I did. It just wasn't me that you were right about.

http://www.imdb.com/title/tt1022603/quotes

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okay i admit it, it hurts too bad.. tsk.. not in a way that i'd cry, its a wonder i didn't cry that instance that i realized i lost him, or well he walked away, just like the guys before him did.. i wondered though if it was for real, i've known him for such a long time, and i've always thought it would be easier, less complicated this time.. but okay here we go again.. i can't stand it, i can't stand the thought that he might just be back with her, i could not stand thinking about anything beyond that.. i can't. so i just need to do this.. i wish you could read this. these craps they're all about you anyway if you give a damn. anyway, i have to go..i'm so tired of this.. malamang lilipat na naman ako ng blog after neto dahil puro kaartehan na to..minsan naisip ko isend nalang sayo yung link e, o sana malaman mo para mabasa mo to... hay pag-ibig i hate you na....

tama na muna

ayoko na. ayoko na ng magulong lovelife.ayoko na ng ganitong sitwasyon. ayoko na nung parang kayo pero hindi kayo.ayoko na ng gusto mo magalit, sumigaw, mainis pero hindi pwede kasi para kang tanga dahil wala ka naman karapatan. ayoko na magisip, ayoko na maparanoid..hay ayoko na talaga..ewan ko kung ano gagawin ko... i try every single time to make it right pero mali pa din.. buti na lang tumugtog yung kanta ni daughtry kanina sa o.r. dahil sobrang ewan , naiinis ako...nagagalit, pero nagiisip pa din.......ayoko na muna ikwento..hayaan na muna naten, hayaan ko na muna eto... iniisip ko tuloy ngayon yung sinasabi ni camil, na lagi na lang daw at this too shall pass..sana nga katulad ko din siya in a way na ayaw ko masaktan na, dahil ako sugod ng sugod..ay mali talaga yun.. hay tama na, di ko na alam din ano gagawin, totoo di ko na din alam...

magdadasal na lang muna ko at kakanta ...what about now, what about today? what if you're making me all that i'm meant to be...

so tama na muna...o diba..hindi ko muna to bibisitahin...lol....puro kadramahan na tong blog na to...kaloka...hehehehe

babye muna..

at sa natatanging nagbabasa neto..

haha wag ka na magcomment muna dito, ayaw ko na nga to buksan, magkwentuhan nalang tayo sa ym if online ka din =D tska good luck ah, basta kung ano tingin mo dapat at kung san ka masaya, i support you..andito lang ako to listen... =D

update lang

Nag attend ako sa despidida ng aking isang kabarkada nung highschool, si rossmark! sasakay na siya ng barko to work in a cruise ship bilang isang chef... nakalimutan ko yung job title exactly, hehe basta parang after ng sous chef iyon.. so i attended bago ako dumiretso for my first night duty sa operating room.. Kumain kami sa may banawe q.c. at chef robert na restaurant.. had fun , see pictures sa facebook =D.. tapos nagduty, pero wala naman ginawa as in super swabe , nakatulog pa nga kami ni sir wilbert, kwentuhan at konting updates ng night work...

i miss you, ayoko magsound so needy, or desperate or paranoid, but i miss you, inisip ko hindi ka itext ng ilang araw, dati kaya ko naman , pero okay so nakaya ko ng more than a day gawin, but not more than 2 days...lol... so nagtext ako, i knew na may meeting ka every wednesday but anyway gusto ko lang itext ka, to say i miss you..naks kasi naman namimiss talaga kita, e ano ba mapapala ko kung di ko sasabihin...haha, pero sumasakit na kasi yung ulo ko kakaisip sayo, busy naman ako, may work pa ko ng lagay na to pero namimiss kita talaga... alam ko na busy ka talaga ngayon kasi napromote ka nga, at siyempre i'm proud of you and i always pray naman na (alam mo na yun Lord hehe)... so sabi mo sa akin pasensya na sobrang busy lang talaga..and siguro eto yung feeling mo nun anu, yung ako yung sobrang sabog sa schedule na ilang beses ko kinacancel yung mga lakad naten dahil nagbago sched ko tapos nagsorry ako sayo tapos yung di ako pwede lumakad kasi may duty ako and all, eto siguro yun, tapos nagtatampo ka..hehe, nakakamiss , kasi ikaw naman yung super busy..hay ano ba yan, haha bakit ba ganito ang pag-ibig...

nabasa ko lang ito sa post ng isang friend sa facebook

I'm scared as hell to want you, but here I am, wanting you anyway. And fear means I have something to lose, right? And I don't want to lose you. - Meredith Grey

ako takot pa din, ganun pa din pero more than takot ako may nararamdaman pa ko na iba, and i guess its faith, kasi okay pa din.. maliban sa takot na nararamdaman ko , wala ng iba pa, so magusap nalang ulit tayo okay , may ibibigay din kasi ako sa'yo at sana wala ka pa nun ...haha...

and sasabihin ko sana lahat to sayo pero di pa nga tayo makapagkitakita at busy .... hmm..miss na kita sobra...

facebook lang ng madaling araw

nakita ko sa account ni boris ang kantang ito. hindi ako nageemote ngayon, sa totoo lang naghahanap ako ng work sa ibang bansa, tapos nagfacebook.. ewan ko ba ayaw ko makarelate, pero sige na nga, konti meron...lol...naalala ko tuloy nung okay pa kami ni boris (alam mo na yung kwento), we'd listen to songs like these ng madaling araw, mahilig kasi siya sa love songs, ewan ko ba dun....... ayoko na muna sana ng love songs, sinusundan yata nila ako...

"what did i say, what did you do? how did i fall in love with you?"

iniisip ko ngayon ano kaya gagawin ko, night duty ako bukas pala... at sinisipon ako , hay ... life is good pa din =D thank the Lord =D thank you Lord.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=IbxrH44Afko&feature=related

maybe its time for miracles

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ngfpipJo4fQ

ang link sa itaas ay idinededicate ko sa aking kaibigan na si camil, at sa akin din ehem, at sa lovelife ng mga tao na magulo pero masaya at makulay..

nasa fx ako nito e, pauwi na galing duty, tapos sabi ko sa sarili ko ayaw ko na kausapin si jommel dahil nga galit ako sa kaniya, hindi naman ako galit, ewan ko ba may ginawa siya na bigla ko naalala si willy at yung mga hindi maganda na bagay na dapat di na talaga iniisip pa... tapos i said hay Lord eto na naman tayo...ako pala..and this song starts playing sa fx..e di naisip ko kelan pa nauso sa akin yung natakot ako, well lagi naman ako takot, every single day na masaktan ulit, pero alam mo yun...no more lies...im not going to lie, i'd rather try and know than never try...

so this song starts playing...and there you go with the lyrics...baby you know that, maybe its time for miracles, i ain't giving up on us....... ang sweet ano..hehe... and i'm happy with him, and we are different compared nung high school pa kami...could you believe that, someone you knew nung highschool pa and seatmate mo and someone i used to share my crushes with, yung lalaking lagi din nambibwicit sakin dahil sa uniporme ko at yung lalaking nangongopya at kinokopyahan ko sa math.. i've never imagined i'd feel this way about him.. i always knew he's one of the great guys and he turned out to be one... at congratulations pala kay jommel!! (clap clap clap) hehe for being promoted as the youngest project manager sa company niya...

jommel: may sasabihin ako sayo, ikaw ang isa sa mga unang makakaalam, actually wala pa nakakaalam
ako: ano? hahaha, natatawa ko ano ba yan
jommel: i got promoted, as the youngest project manager, pero di pa inannounce
ako: wow, really..congrats!

haha ewan ko ba syet....gusto ko din sabihin nun wow congrats, i love you haha

hay christine, baliw ka talaga ..lol

=D

pwede pala yung masaya ka super ng isang oras, and the next hour ganun ka din kalungkot.. and parang tanga dahil isang tao lang din ang dahilan.. Lord..ayoko na umiyak, please.,wag naman ulit..bigyan nyo po ako ng courage to let go and accept things..courage please..and sign please. anything.. kaya ko pa naman..please

and ang weird na tumutugtog yung smile na kanta ni uncle kracker and i'm starting to cry...

haha and i'm laughing cause i'm crying..it's really whatever..i'd just pray and go to sleep..

=D thank you Lord still...please give me that courage and clear mind.......thanks.

it came over me in a rush

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=TC16HafN840&feature=related

I find myself now listening to this song over and over, saw the first few lines of the lyrics in a friend's status in face book, decided to search for the song...
' it came over me in a rush, when i realized that i love you so much'

i start falling and falling every single day, its like a little step everyday,never so sure but like faith, i just feel its going to be okay.. it just came over me, I now find myself thinking of him more often than i usually do.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=DL3_UKuysWc

And i can't find the words to express how i feel ...so i'm leaving that link above...

.................i'm just thankful Lord. thank you.

quite a lot of wondering lately

i'm home from a simple reunion with my college friends. Had a lot of fun, ate lunch @ Bigoli, videoke worth 400 pesos in timezone and dinner at Tempura (location: Trinoma). For pictures please see my facebook account hehe =D

I've not much news today blog. Well i have to wake up at 4am tomorrow, I have work at 6am. Its him again, I guess its going to be like this for awhile until things start to get clearer (I really pray it does soon). He told me his ex called him up, missed call I supposed at past 3 am last night, said he couldn't sleep afterwards. They did not talk, it was a missed call. And I was thinking, what do I say, how do I feel? I've always been wondering lately. Its like I wanted to tell him to pick me and love me just as much, maybe greater, that I am a new start and I wish and I really wish he would take that start. But I just couldn't do that, its not that simple, I do not own his emotions or his life. I called him up to ask if he's okay, told me he's going to be fine. I don't know what to feel, its past eleven in the evening and I'm browsing through his account, staring at their family photos taken just this Christmas. I guess everytime we do a little growing up (age wise and maturity wise),the way in which we fall in love starts to change too. I was thinking what if I'm just that girl he brought home instead, what if it was us all along, what if .. and why do I wish to be that girl now, so badly. I just want to be that woman, that woman he needs.

Okay time to sleep... just some of my thoughts.. get back to you..goodnight =D

you're just like a star

i made a lot of resolutions for this year and posted them in my facebook account. i broke some already, well probably not since I placed 'try' at the start of every line, lol. I remember placing there , i will try not to assume, not to expect and not to confront people. I guess I did quite a good start on that.

i was wondering though what you meant by what you said. (see its the downside of not being confrontational! haha).

i wondered why you called me up and started talking about your plans for this year. i wondered really what you meant when you said you can finally get a girlfriend because you believe you're ready. i wondered why you asked me, what do i think? I didn't say anything but I was thinking, what answer are you looking for? you know how i feel about you, it's just weird but i knew i didn't have to say anything, because i could feel it. i can feel that message you're trying to tell me. I wished you'd learn how to say it out flat just like I always do (haha, but I know you well).I guess that's the good thing when you've known each other since high school, i guess that's a bonus. When you can talk about anything, when you can tell your guy exactly how you feel, when you can cry because you're really hurting and you can tell that person why and what you need and not fearing you won't talk again ever after that(previous cases please), when you can laugh out loud, eat like there's no tomorrow, go shopping for dresses and heels with that guy and enjoy every single second of it together. I wanted to tell you,I'm falling for you. I know I am, i wanted to blurt it out right then just when you were so busy telling me all your plans, when you were sharing them with me and when the song 'Like a star' by Corinne bailey rae was playing while we were talking. It was just beautiful like that song, i guess that moment was beautiful, and im really looking forward to seeing you again, i haven't seen you since the holidays... and even though we were just talking last night, i miss you now.
i wonder why it is...just like the song says.