quite a lot of wondering lately

i'm home from a simple reunion with my college friends. Had a lot of fun, ate lunch @ Bigoli, videoke worth 400 pesos in timezone and dinner at Tempura (location: Trinoma). For pictures please see my facebook account hehe =D

I've not much news today blog. Well i have to wake up at 4am tomorrow, I have work at 6am. Its him again, I guess its going to be like this for awhile until things start to get clearer (I really pray it does soon). He told me his ex called him up, missed call I supposed at past 3 am last night, said he couldn't sleep afterwards. They did not talk, it was a missed call. And I was thinking, what do I say, how do I feel? I've always been wondering lately. Its like I wanted to tell him to pick me and love me just as much, maybe greater, that I am a new start and I wish and I really wish he would take that start. But I just couldn't do that, its not that simple, I do not own his emotions or his life. I called him up to ask if he's okay, told me he's going to be fine. I don't know what to feel, its past eleven in the evening and I'm browsing through his account, staring at their family photos taken just this Christmas. I guess everytime we do a little growing up (age wise and maturity wise),the way in which we fall in love starts to change too. I was thinking what if I'm just that girl he brought home instead, what if it was us all along, what if .. and why do I wish to be that girl now, so badly. I just want to be that woman, that woman he needs.

Okay time to sleep... just some of my thoughts.. get back to you..goodnight =D