i'm back =D

ang weird kahapon ay emo ang blog ko pero ngayon ay hindi... just read someone's blog...one of my favorite bloggers sa net actually... " you don't quit just because you're not happy at the moment, that's why its called a relationship.." and i thought to myself, my oh my am i always the quitter..like i stop when it hurts, i stop when i'm not happy, i stop when its unfair...now don't get me wrong, i'm never scared, maybe, next time..i can make it right..with God's help of course....hehehe

anyway..i am back on morning duty! yebah! i miss seeing a lot of people pag duty... and i still love a.m duty because i get to chat with my co-workers and mas exciting kaya, mas madami kaso..okay ang night, pero i look so bloated now, altered kasi ang sleeping at eating habits ko...

goodnyt guys..goodnyt mr. e =D

secrets by one republic

it still hurts. in a weird way, syempre i stalked his account again,..i wonder why i still do it.. been more than a month already, no talk, no anythings..i'm listening to this song by one republic with the title secrets, so tell me what you want from me?... gawd what do you want from me, it still hurts.. its a secret i supposed, i don't tell anyone about it anymore.. but it does, i wonder kung sino yung bagong babae, kung meron man, siguro wala din naman..ewan ko ..ako ba may bago, okay lang.. entertaining possibilities, trying to open up myself to maybe just maybe the right guy ..pero how do you feel that way na pwede na ulit magmahal when i can't even talk to him yet, i can't admit na nagseselos ako and i'm just not ready yet to let it go...damn. i just need to get it off my chest .

sana makalimutan ko na. sana mawala na.ayoko na jommel..and i keep clicking that name, and i wonder everyday what you did this day, and i do it every single time....shux..tell me what do you want from me.damn...repeat to self.

may work pala ko bukas. time flies by so fast..eto lang yung mabagal ...

rootless tree

i've been listening to this song...again.. I found it tonight while browsing through music videos from Live @ abbey road channel..

I love the song. I guess its one hell of a break up song.. and one hell of a song for those who got their hearts broken, got dumped, left hanging, misled, cheated on and so on.. I found the song a couple of months ago, when I was trying to move on from someone else.. and I found myself playing it again.. it goes like.. (insert lyrics here) ..let me out, let me out its hell when you're around..

hehe no i am not being dramatic here..but here we go, its almost v-day, oh my..what the..what's the use of v-day when you can't even talk to that guy you like..haha and when I can't even tell him how i feel..oh whats the use (insert another song here)

anyway here's the link to the song , enjoy =D

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=xlnpedLeGbo&feature=PlayList&p=A17B406EFDFF5C51&index=17

P.S. so that's why there's so much emotion into the song, I didn't know Damien and Lisa had a real relationship...lol I wonder though how it feels to sing this kind of song with that person you would probably want to say it to anyway... fuck you. fuck you and all that we've been through..

It's not like what you think it is, haha its very melodramatic and beautiful if you listen to it..classic =D

Haha anyway I don't want to be so negative..its hearts day anyway, and just because I currently miss someone, can't tell him, don't have the courage and don't know what to do so i secretly badly desire he misses me in the same way.... I still think 14 might be a good day after all..its a Sunday anyway and its my off day =D so here is a song..for you.. if you're in love or still looking for that one..or if you found him and don't know it yet or if you know that feeling when you look at someone and realizes that you found the one already..here is a song..its upbeat =D

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=7WwaPv1rZiQ

it's from lisa hannigan, she looks so much better here =D

choco madness

i know some people are reading this.. haha..and if you ain't my close friend don't ask about it..its my blog..and i'm like this in reality..if i don't tell you about it , di tayo close so wag mo na ko tinatanong..lol.

oh hello online world..i kept saying that i don't like the latest cake from red ribbon, the one called chocolate heaven, its too gooey, chunky (or maybe not), and clay-like but i kept eating it for two days now, in fact im the only one eating the whole cake, slice per slice, eeek plus i kept eating that box of belgian chocolates, omg i'm going on overload, i could feel my tummy enlarging already, not that it ain't big already...ahahha..

anyway its my off day today, but i didn't go anywhere, in fact i was at my workplace today for a meeting... just slept the rest of the day.. and i have work again tomorrow...geez..could you believe that,..at least its payday next week..wuhooo..

im so full right now, i could puke..lol...im just kidding.. haha ..anyway it was his birthday yesterday, oh come on i kept thinking a thousand times if i should greet him...but i did not..and yes i don't plan to, i just kept thinking about it though, i even asked a friend to greet him for me, but my friend did not want to haha.. and i even asked her to add him up so he could read this stupid blogs before it gets covered up with all the other posts... but then again i guess the answer is no.. i checked his account though, like i would usually do.. i wonder when i would stop doing that.. i wish i would stop..but the heck i still can't help it..i kept thinking who is the new one, new girl, new someone, whoever.. so he's found someone already, has he? how come i have not ? why o why then its so unfair, how come its always unfair, how come its not easier considering we were good friends before all this i love him shits.. something like that.. and how could he find someone else in such a short time, that is absurd or not possible.. because I don't know how to do that, so how did he? lol... so i kept checking and checking, stalking and stalking, man i get tired of that.. mentally..but my fingers just kept typing like this..

its almost valentines day, and contrary to the fact that i am technically single, i do have a date.. i guess.. its just weird that the only person id like to be with , well i wonder what he's thinking.. and i don't know what you do with these kinds of situation, like do i pray, i always do but sometimes i just don't get it when God says no.. do i wait..(man i kept doing this), or do i just let it go...hay ang sarap ma inlove ..namimiss ko na lang siya... yun lang...

see yah.

miss you like crazy (naks)

yehey..may bagong movie si john lloyd at bea!! fan talaga ako pramis =D gusto ko din si sarah at john lloyd...! hehe yung iba di ko pinapanood sa sine, eto lang talaga, ah maliban pala dun sa one more chance di ko kasi pinanood sa sine yun, sa dvd lang, kasi medyo malungkot yung story, pero eto papanoorin ko 'to...nako sana hindi matulad dun sa avatar ha na di ko na napanood talaga..ganda naman kasi ubusan ng tickets hanep! pero eto gusto ko panoorin with matching popcorn at large coke! lol..coke talaga, diet pala ko...kuno..

at may naalala ako..syet eto na naman..haha sabe ko na hindi ako mage-emote dito e, bilang may mga nagbabasa na neto..na ewan ko ba ha public diary daw 'to, hindi naman kaya, nagkataon lang na gusto nila pagchismisan yung kaartehan ko (hindi kasi ako ganito sa work, syempre di ko pa naman ka-close talaga mga tao dun..pero sa mga kaclose ko talaga tulad nila camil at toni at roy, ganito talaga ko magkwento..at magulo naman kasi talaga ang lovelife ko ewan ko ba bakit...pero masaya naman ..=D ) naalala ko sabi niya noon, habang kumakain kami sa padis ng dinner at galing ako ng duty..sabi nia..

J: alam mo yung one more chance parang ganun yung story namin
Ako: Talaga? ikaw kasi lagi mo kinukumpara sa movie
J: hindi ganun talaga, sakto nga
Ako: ay nako, ginagawa mo kasing basehan yun e,hindi yun

tapos eto..parang hindi ba parang eto kami ngayon..haha pramis..syet talaga..haha tapos ako naman magsasabi ng , alam mo ba yung miss you like crazy parang ganun tayo?
weh ang korni haha..natatawa ko..pero bakeeeeeeeeeeettttttttt...ang arts ko..lol .. kinikilig pa din talaga ko..john loid bea!!yipeeeeeeee

ipost ko dito yung trailer..

the dip..in short the point...anu daw

haha..dahil minsan e binabasa 'to ng mga napakabait kong katrabaho sa ospital... grabe hindi ako emo palage okay! nagkataon lang mahilig ako maginarte pero hindi palage.. lol..

anyway, saw this book while browsing through fully booked facebook account, really interesting description..

The old saying is wrong—winners do quit, and quitters do win.
Every new project (or job, or hobby, or company) starts out exciting and fun. Then it gets harder and less fun, until it hits a low point—really hard, and not much fun at all.
And then you find yourself asking if the goal is even worth the hassle. Maybe you’re in a Dip—a temporary setback that will get better if you keep pushing. But maybe it’s really a Cul-de-Sac, which will never get better, no matter how hard you try.
According to bestselling author Seth Godin, what really sets superstars apart from everyone else is the ability to escape dead ends quickly, while staying focused and motivated when it really counts.

Alam ko na yung feeling na yan, yung sa job sa una masaya tapos hindi na..nakow haha dun sa opisina ko dati masaya naman kasi petiks dun (petiks in short sisiw naman ang trabaho). Yebah ang yabang! But seriously mahirap siya kung magiisip ka kasi lagi araw araw para makapagpasa ng output pero di siya physically exhausting so okay lang sa akin yun, pero hindi na siya masaya after... (except dun sa part na nagulo gulo ang buhay ko dahil sa uhm, wag magkakagusto sa katrabaho mo! lol)... kaya finally i said, i quit! wuhoo ...

sa hobby ewan ko naman, kasi hobby ko maggym pero tamad lang talaga ako ngayon hindi naman dahil sa di na ko masaya... lol

at isa pa sa mga relationships..parang quitter ako anu..lately parang feel ko ganun na ko... instinct ba yun, na sa madalas naman feel ko mali naman ako ng instinct pero minsan tama, lol ewan basta ang gulo...parang sabi ko im not quitting pero pag masasaktan ako nako parang unahan nalang tayo....lol..di naman ganun lage...

oha oha, so gusto ko bilin to, feel ko di na ko nakakapagbasa, i was a bookworm pa naman..more for intellectual stuffs naman!

cheesy keso

its the love month! and Feb 14 is a Sunday and guess what I dont have work that day.. yipee! Nah, i don't have a date this 14, I was hoping and I actually thought that I would have though, (if you read my previous posts).. I still miss him.. still sucks every time I think about it. I have tried staying away from him, which is actually a lot easier than I imagined since he never bothered to contact me anyway. I still check his facebook account though, (alam mo ba yun yung parang feeling mo moving on ka pero pinapakialaman mo yung account pa din niya, and you secretly wish ginagawa niya din yun..)

My colleagues in my workplace wanted to watch that movie with kim and gerald, i didn't want to. But maybe I would, haha just kidding. Anyway we were not best friends, we were good friends..there is a difference..but the whole twist its the same in the movie..oh my..typical story I guess.

I'm currently listening to nicole hyala's mahal kita kasi,
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=67QM_REDeNk&feature=player_embedded
ang cheesy! haha gusto ko magtagalog all of a sudden.. =D

Hay lovelife where are you.. ayaw na kitang pilitin kung ayaw mo saken ngayon muna, cge na nga take your time..madami pa din ako kelangan ayusin sa sarili ko ..tulad ng career ko at ang weight loss na forever ko naman na sinasabi...tapos pag okay na, sana handa ka na din ha.. =D at tulad nga ng nabasa ko sa isang blog, ang pag-ibig hindi minamadali at lalong hindi kinakarir..

I thought of deleting this blog, or transferring to another one (again) since i have too many emotional corny notes here about love..but its still all good, besides i'm still hoping he'd read this... lol... unbelievable! =D haha

I have work tomorrow.really early schedule again, and i aim to be really good at what i do, so help me God! =D and please bless Haiti... amen.